Tuesday, 5 April 2011

A Cherished Memory

I joined one of the famous college in Alappuzha for ma graduation.College was far from ma house,more than one hour from ma house.None of ma friends were joined in that college.So I was almost alone in the college for first few days.One week later only I understood one of ma plus two mate also joined in the same college.I met her in the college bus and she was coming from near to ma native place.In that way I got a friend in the college...within days we became very close friends.

No one can see me without Susan & vice-versa.First year gone very happily and we all entered into second year of our graduation.In the second year,ma friend Susan joined in a tuition centre and her classes was scheduled morning 7 am.So I missed her in the college bus.

One day afternoon ,Susan came and asked 'Darling,Could you come with me for browsing?'.I haven't understand what she had meant by the word browsing even then also I said 'Yes Babs,I Can'.So we escaped from the boring language class(hindi) and reached the internet cafe.Susan created an email id in 'YAHOO'.I was watching all magic in the first time in life.I could see small square boxes in the computer screen,because of ma curiosity,I asked about the small square boxes.She replied 'Dear,those are chat windows,not boxes'.

She gave a detailed description about yahoo chatting & chat rooms on the way back to home.Next time she created a yahoo id for me and I learned chatting techniques from Sus but I didn't try for a chat at that time.
Again I gone with her for browsing,that day I also started using Yahoo Messanger and entered into yahoo chat room.Within seconds,someone pinged me,as usual in chat rooms that person asked asl,but how poor I was,couldn't understand the abbreviation of 'asl'.Luckily Sus helped me and she had answered for all his queries.

The very next day also I had a chat with the same person.His name was Vishal.He revealed everything about him...his family,friends,academics,hobbies...Within short span,we both became friends.I said thanks to Susan for her help for getting a nice friend like him.I never asked his contact number and he never asked mine also. Chatting with him was became one of ma hobby later on.he was very talkative and not an introvert at all.As friends we did everything,like teasing,pulling legs of each other & after all we both shared all our sorrows & joys which friends normally do.

There were lots of common stuff to hold our friendship strong,like dance,violin,music etc etc.\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\The friendship successfully completed first anniversary without any harm.

One day I got an offline message.It made me sad & depressed.Vishal got his visa for higher studies(normally it was a good news)but I was upset.So I haven't replied to his offline message and tried to concentrate more into ma studies & reading. Something was pulled me back from checking ma mail box.After a week,I opened ma mailbox,I could see around 54 messages from vishal.Read all of them and I had got his mobile number from one of his mail.I completely understood his intention was to get a phone call from ma end.

Finally I tried to reach him,The call got connected and the very first time I spoke with him.I was bit nervous for a few minutes.But he was a chatter box.From his talks I realized he wasn't the same mood like me.He was happy for his travel to the new country.So I controlled and hide ma bloody missing feelings from him.He planned to leave the country the very next week.But he never forget to talk to me till he leave the country.He asked for a gift from me caz of that I gifted one of ma drawing and he too gifted his writings to me.I was really happy.It wasn't love,but true friendship.On the way to his journey,he reached me on phone and said he will miss me and he was worried about me.I was sad even though I made him convinced that our friendship will never end.He reached the new country safely and started his new life there.

I haven't received a single message or phone call from him later.But I was expecting his calls everyday.Days....weeks....months....years....I have heard anything about him.Meanwhile I had successfully completed ma graduation and gone for higher studies.New friends,new incidents came into ma life.Even then also his memories were there in ma heart.

After seven years,I got a mail from him,but I haven't replied to his mail.After few days,he had tried to reach me on ma landlines.We both haven't felt any gap in our relation after years & years.He clearly said it to me.Our friendship became the same as before but I do have something beyond a friendship with him,never ever let him to know the same.Because he do have lots & lots of gf who all were very beautiful,elegant,smart compared to me.So I never expressed my feelings to him.

Years gone..one day he said casually he was keeping a true love for me for last 10 years,but he knew I was considering him as a good friend & was not keeping any feelings more than a friend to him.Even then also he wanted to say it,so he expressed it.I couldn't say anything,so I tried to escape from the topic without asking anything about his love.But he was saying the same,I really wanna say 'Yes vishal I do have the same' but I didn't,and I will not...So I had handled the topic nicely asking like how many times you will lie in a day,he didn't answer for ma question....and hanged up the call....he never callled me again..

Still keeping his memories in ma heart,and loving him....but don't know where he is.......

                                   ' HE WILL BE MA FRIEND FOREVER'
 If you have the same kind of experience...share it...and share your views about friendship between a girl & boy,whether it related to their age group?Don't hesitate to post your valuable comments...


  1. very interesting subjects. u are d only blogger friend from europe writes in english.

    wish u all d best

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